I watch porn a daily basis and it makes me sick and disgusted in myself after ejaculating, but I seem to be stuck in a cycle. When I try to stop porn to stop fapping I end up going on NSFW subreddits (I know people will say delete your reddit account but you can still access nsfw subreddits by going on a computer) and fap away. And now I have developed a habit of posting attractive people I know personally on subreddits that then talk about what I would do to that person in a sexual manner with another person who commented on my post. And after relapsing I realise that I have made such a bad decision. It makes me sick to keep doing things like this. Because of this addiction I cannot concentrate and focus on my work.
How can I get out of this endless rut???